eh... i think after all the times i've tried... im not really cut out for journaling..

i mean, i reflect but ack--

i dunno how to make an entry... SOUND GOOD.
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alrighty, nothin' in the life right now. it's all steady.

summer is cruising along great. $50 a weekend. hanging out with friends.

i'm not going to AX this year.

hmmm.... i need to start drawing again.. maybe painting... maybe some photoshop stuff but i dunno. something--anything to improve myself.

started playing some bass guitar..

my friend's getting some of his music shiz really going.
www.myspace.com/venicevertigo
he got it checked out last night. the mananger says the stuff is pretty good... could start his own shows all over the clubs in LA.

so surreal.

alright, peace.

ok, soo... Just like a crazy rollercoaster ride, my friendship tumbles. But instead of panicking, I feel totally at peace. Somehow I know that I have dealt with how I feel about this friendship.

I am waiting on them to respond. I want them to pull through, and have the courage to join me so we can help each other improve ourselves. May this work out itself for the best.

Actually, deep in my heart, I know that 'I am truly loved.' I know my friend cares for me deeply. But it's time she has to love herself. She is currently avoiding me today. But I KNOW she will come back once she has wised up and found herself.

As for opening the heart chakra, it is something that I am working on in myself.. I have been trying to be more COMPASSIONATE. this is true love-- this is unconditional. This love is for everyone~


hahah my new hero is stephane hemon--
www.ideagasms.net/ideagasms-home

Just account of stuff that happened today.

:< sooo woke up with mornin' at 6:13, was hoping to get up at 5 so i can walk around in the pitch dark to meet my friend at 7. the plans for today were SUPPOSED to be getting together early and then watching The Omen (the old one), then head over to the library for awhile until we head to nickel nickel to play some ddr.

¬_¬ i wish i spent less money, cuz ddr today was sort of tiring for me. i felt lazy-ish for some weird reason and my legs wouldn't move fast enough. actually, the majority of the time i just STOOD there and stared at the passing arrows and my dropping score. i feel like a n00b. :3 ddr was still fun though, when i actually tried.

good thing it's nickel nickel cuz even the most expensive ddr machine is only 40 cents per game. 80 cents. and i bought my friends bag of nickels too. i think i spent about.... 15-20 dollars today?

i don't mind. we didn't spend it only on ddr.

my friend is just obsessed with ddr, but i spent some time running back and forth trying to play drum mania whenever a new person has stolen the ddr machine. that is, until this pro guy came on there and started hogging it. DDX omggetoffthemachinealreadymyturnn00bwannaplay! im not super n00b but compared to that guy that's what you would call me ;P

OWO ohyea, and we played parapara most of the time afterwards. YES, it's a fun game... ¬_¬;; i don't care if i look like a tard. it's not so bad *dances to eurobeat*

went over to tacobell nearby and fooled around a bit before we went home. stupid stuff, like taking pictures of the giant chalk penis that someone drew on the cement and then splatting water on over it to make it look like cum. we also gave toy kimimaro/'ducky' a shower. and then we bathed him in strawberry soda and washed him off. ohyea, and we dipped him in cheese. i don't know why this amused us so. XD

Talk about the most amazing night of my life!!!!!

May 26th-- night of the jrock festival--/concert. yeeea.

I think the best part about going there was risking it to go with my friend, Twiggy.
She's my closest friend.... and I'm glad that our horrible fight on Thursday(?, I believe it was that day) didn't affect our moods. I'm glad we made up.

I don't remember crying so hard after that fight. After it had started off with an innocent game of speaking your thoughts.
Despite how much we get annoyed with each other-- I don't care for anyone else as much. Not slight annoyance sometimes, --sometimes I just despise certain characteristics she has. I'm sure she thinks the same of me. I'm glad that we're both very accepting of each others different views. I think that's why we get along so well.

Anyways, the car ride wasn't that bad.-- It was amazing when we got there.
Everyone was really dressed up. They had some pretty extravagant outfits. I wasn't dressed up at all so I was probably considered [even way less than casual].
At least Twiggy's hair is dyed. lawwwl.

So after about ...hmmm, maybe an hour of "waiting" in line, we finally got to go in.

It technically wasn't waiting because Twiggy and I kept running from the back of the line all the way to the front to see everyone that had come. It was already a lot of fun just doing that. Then we took a cam and recorded them all. =D and took some pictures of ourselves to, as Twiggy's mom says, 'commemorate for this event'.

So the opening act was Merry, it wasn't a super-awesome kind of start to me but it was fairly good. It probably would've been more exciting if I actually knew all of the songs. XDD

Girugamesh, the next act was just...--just.... they were gwaaaahhh they were unbelievable. I've only listened to one of their songs and it was awesome seeing them live. That's how good they were.

D'espairsRay-- GWAHHHHHHHHHHHHsfkjaslkdf skjldf i used up all my energy on this band. I've never screamed/sweated so much. ^_^

MUCC they were good too. ^___^ a fave, but i used up so much energy i was 'pooped' D:

yesh it was a great night. and i slept over at Twiggy's ehehe.

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maybe i'm not good at making friends.

i love to feel close to people. to depend on others. to feel dependable.

i'm very confused right now. i've caused a problem for a close friend of mine... but i don't feel wholly responsible because they have hurt me a lot too.

i feel our friendship dying. i feel very empty. i've done some stupid things to damage it... and i don't know how to make it up.

Hmm.. almost done with my last two manga pages for the first chapter.. I'm finally gettin' a move on here! XD

OOoOOOoOOOoooooOOOOoo this is the funniest day of my life!!! (well so far XD) Sugiyama-san SINGING!! XD (imagines Sasuke singing in her head) (then Ishida)
XDDD
funneh stuff :P


Sugiyama-san sings very well~!! XD

oh and Morita.. is Ichigo from Bleach :P

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG....!!!!







that is all. :P

I am soooo tired.. U_U i want to go to sleep but the internet is driving me crazy!!
oh btw.. anyone know any good antivirus, adware protectors, spyware protectors... stuff like that? Plus i can just dl it and they wont make me buy? XD

My comp is also OVERLOADED IMO -__-... well ok maybe not.. but ive been using a lot of space lately... im gonnna go on a deleting spree!! XD

does anyone know how to compress files?
my comp also says i dont need a disc defragment... to that can't help me free up space.. >.>

Eh... I haven't used this in forever....

its cuz i lost the password!! O_O.. >.>

anyways... im planning to post in here more often. i dunno how to design and make my page look nice like all the other ones that i've seen XD i don't really know that much about computers

hehe today is kinda good!! I feel a little accomplished but still very busy...
Still trying to change my schedule cuz well I go to sleep at 3 in the morning..
My goal today is to be in bed by 12...
I hope this gets done!!
I fell asleep in Science today!!O_O

Well I'm back with my laptop....*sigh*...
It's all cause of that STUPID VIRUS!!>_<
But now I'm back and I actually felt like making an update here!!
(Which means I actually have timeO_O)But anyways today was the best school day I had!!

Hi!I have no idea how this stuff works.....I have read some live journals before but I never understood...
Now I have my own site,,,and I guess its time I start messing with stuff like I usually do...hehe.